I'm doing quite well lately, I've been on my new anti-depressant tablets about a month now - and there really is a big noticeable difference (was I really rather crazy before!??)
Anyway, I am feeling good - much less emotional and mood-swing proned. Still get much more tired than I would like... so I wonder if the fatigue is the #1 problem (which is why I went to the Dr in the first place) - and that the depression was simply a side effect of the fatigue, and still the first issue hasn't been addressed? - not too sure yet...
I'm trying to change my habits (as I have been trying unsuccessfully for the past year or so!) - and perhaps I am getting there now! - Just trying to do less, trying not to say "Yes" to too many things and jump in too quickly... even saying a "no" to a few things that I have already said yes to when I realise that there is still too much on my plate.
I've been reading quite a few new books lately: 'The Element' by Ken Robinson, 'Share your Work', 'The War of Art'. All very good.
I am trying to figure out if I really have found "My Element" - or if I am close but sidelined a bit, and letting "resistence" stop me from going for what I really want?? A bit confusing...
All I know is that I LOVE so much about all that I have achieved and am achieving with my business A Little Creative. The concern is whether I 'should' be doing more of my own art... and if so what exactly??
The picture-story books idea and plans have been on the agenda for quite some time now: but I can't manage to knuckle down and commit to it. Is that resistance? Or is just not a #1 priority for me at the moment? The biggest problem I have is that I am so time-poor. I always have too many ideas and not enough time. It is hard enough to find the time to THINK about things properly...
I think I am on track. I am just giving myself a 'breather' - time to chill, time to explore... and time to practise not jumping in to anything too quickly.
I AM doing lots more art, and I love it. Never enough time to do it all - which is a good sign that I am on the right track I guess.
I've got an eco-fashion design event coming up next month... kind of wishing I hadn't put my hand up for it - as there's always a lot involved... but trying to spin it to completely suit my own interests...
Should be fun. Tilly will love it I reckon.
As for my own art.. I'm enjoying doing watercolour painting... I think painting and collage may be my #1 passions at the moment...
I have a little bit of time whilst Ben has taken the kids to the movies... so I will try to do some now!
xo
