Finally putting theory into practise by deciding to: 'live in the now' and 'take baby steps'...

Yes, for a long time perhaps I have known what I "should" be doing - or at least what I "should not" be doing...but my mind kept getting way ahead of my current situation and reality of having two very young and adorable children...

Now I 'think' (HOPE!) that I have finally figured out the right answer to my own endless equation:
X + Y = Z
(where X is ME and my endless creative and business ideas and dreams, Y is my children and family commitments, and Z is something that gives me the right balance and makes me happy and not too stressed!!!)

Yesterday I did my first 'kindy-art' group at A Little Creative. It has been started as a 'trial' group as I wasn't quite sure how it would all go - a lot of unknowns with space, cost , activities etc. that I thought needed to be experimented with... But after the class - I thought: I LOVED IT! - AND it So suits where I am at right now!!!! The target audience suits me.. my daughter could participate in the classes and now I've made space for littler ones to be accommodated to - so hopefully Curtis will be happy with the arrangement if I start to run a few of these classes (as many as possible).

This idea of Kindy-Art has always been there - but financially it fell into the not-worthwhile category and so I kept discarding it as an option... After all, my business goal is to earn some decent money, isn't it??

Yes I have to make ends meet - I have to cover my overheads and earn a (little) bit for my time... but the reality is that my business goal is not to earn lots of money - it's to make me HAPPY - to satisfy me, to challenge me, stimulate me.. and to build up to something bigger in the future.

I am choosing NOT to be a salary earner whilst my kids are still young... and yes, in most cases a business should MAKE MONEY - but to hell with that right now! As long as I can cover my costs and am enjoying myself - then why not?? I have felt under a lot of pressure with my business decisions recently... the 'logical' answer often seems to be to not do a business at all at this stage.. But I just can't let go... because I WANT TO DO THIS!

If I keep my mind simple, and acknowledge what I truly do want:
- to do ART, be CREATIVE and have fun.
- to look after my kids and be there for them at this early age.
- to keep myself sane whilst doing the above.
- to not have stress or to have to 'work' too many hours.
- to do ART with my own kids and also share my creative ideas and enthusiasm with others..
- to have a bit of cash-flow to buy more art materials and 'play'/'experiment' with different art mediums myself.
- etc.

Then this new solution (to focus on doing Kindy-Art predominantly) just seems to make perfect sense - doesn't it??