Oh I am SO good at coming up with 'great ideas' - of visualising how I think things should be.. of dreaming up the perfect plan, activity, afternoon with the kids, studio space..., job.. business...
Yet those fabulous things I imagine generally take a heck of a LOT of hard work... and of course never, ever go quite as planned..
In my ideal world I am a teacher, I am an artist, creativity and love and family is all around.
Oh I could go on and on: painting the scene of MY Willy-Wonka type dream that is all about art and paint and a zillion other fun art materials and activities rather than lollies...
I guess it can be -I just have to alter and modify things a little bit... Start DOING rather than THINKING too much.. because there reality does lie... Doing is never quite how you think it will be.
I just dropped my kids at Family Day Care - and spent half an hour in heated discussion with their fabulous carer as we 'complained' and shared our frustration about all the bullsh#t regulations and restrictions and 'learning outcomes' bla - bla bla that exist.. Yes I am a teacher - I've worked in school systems: I know ALL about it -and there is so much I hated... so much so that I left...
There are just So many rules and regulations that make what should be simple things SO darn hard.. I can understand the reasoning behind them.. but the reality is that trying to do anything in life: like look after someone else's kids, teach fun art classes etc. Is pretty much impossible to do - especially if you actually want to earn some money for your effort and time!
It's frustrating and it's sad.
But complaining is going to get me nowhere. Society is as it is - and I DO NOT intend to enter politics to try and change things. I just have to accept what I don't like, and work within the sytems that are in place -despite how flawed I think they may be..
My ideas and dreams are awesome! - I am going to keep dreaming and believing in myself.. and accept that as I do them I am going to encounter many, many problems - but I can keep going and accept the challenge of working around them and through them towards my visions.
It is going to be a long and bumpy path.. But I can do it...
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