I've been having a rough couple of weeks...
The past couple of months I have been FLAT-OUT - throwing any minuscule inkling of spare time towards getting my new business: 'A Little Creative' started. I'd decided we would open in August... we kinda have - I've been working my butt off to get our first classes promoted and running.. classes of mine and two other teachers... Out first sewing ones (last weekend) didn't get the numbers to run... looks like we may get one class running this Saturday a kid's one for father's day...
Yep. so much i have been doing.. definitely heaps to feel proud of.. but do you know what?? That's not what I'm really the most proud of...
I am proud that for once I have made a good realization as I headed off down my oh-so familiar path of running myself into the ground and wearing myself out to the point of exhaustion -all because I really, really want to achieve something that I believe is going to make me happier... Earlier than ever before I have been able to realize that I am making a mistake. I have to slow down. I can't achieve what I am trying to do just yet - not at this pace... and actually I have my priorities (as usual) slightly skewed.
The whole point to starting up 'A Little Creative' is because I am desperate to BE a little creative!! I so want to do my own art. I want an outlet that is creative and intellectual. I LOVE my kids - they are my hugest priority - but I need something else for me!! I have so many great ideas!! I am so talented and smart and creative.. I'm a hard worker.. courageous.. passionate.
Yet, I very often make the mistake of not looking after myself.. chasing a dream and desire that I think is going to make me happier - yet my actions are not making me happy, but I just throw myself at it until I am totally burnt out.. and sink into depression..
Ah yes.. depression.. my old, old friend... The one I try so hard to understand.. but so often don't..
Guess what!? This time I think I have beaten my usual self destructive patterns that lead me to depression - I think I am getting smarter and wiser! and much better at looking after myself!
I may have to stick my tail between my legs for a little while and face a bit of embarressment as i take a quick step back from my business plans... But I really believe that it is for the best.. And for that I am REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF!!!
I have big and wonderful plans for 'A Little Creative' - I am going to continue developing a business that represents my passions and interests in art and design - and that suits me and my needs around my family... Though right now, I just need to slow down a little bit - focus on giving myself a bit more love and attention - and let the 'artist' come out, rather than the 'teacher'!
Nice one, Lindy. I'm glad to see that you're learning more about yourself and what you need to do in order to look after YOU! :)
ReplyDeleteI know that A Little Creative will be a bit hit one day, but like all good things...let it grow organically. If you start off a bit smaller, and do it really well...word of mouth will help to create bigger class numbers and then you can expand to accommodate. You probably know all this - so I'll pipe down now. Look after yourself - you're the most important product that A Little Creative has.
Give your kids a squeeze from me and hopefully I can do that in person sometime soon! :)
Love you
Sarah.
xx
What an amazing post! I'm so happy that you are looking after yourself & I don't think that sarah could have said it any better. "you ARE the most important product that A Little Creative has".
ReplyDeleteWith out you, we wouldn't have this shinning example of your marvelous brain :) I get excited seeing that little logo pop up on my facebook radar & reading how your journey is going. With all your ups & downs you've never lost sight of what that dream is . Keep strong, chin up and like sarah says, let it grow naturally & it will be. Love Chrissie oxox
thanks so much Sarah and Chrissie xxoo
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