Exhaustion

I'm feeling exhausted.

Just woke up, T is still asleep. I went to bed earlier than usual as I was utterly knackered last night - I get to the stage of feeling so utterly tired that I cannot function and just feel like crying... And now I have woken up feeling almost as bad! Oh dear.

I am over 31 weeks pregnant now, and I fear that this will be my energy level for the rest of the pregnancy... if not getting gradually worse! Plus I have the knowledge of: 'if I feel tired now; just wait until the baby arrives!' Which is not a good thought.

I hate feeling too tired. Obviously I just need to rest, take things slower and easier - but that is so much easier said than done! Especially for me... I always have such an active mind, and a zillion things that I am itching to do. Yes, I am getting used to not doing what I want to... but really, I haven't totally let go or released my desire... I just feel like I am getting more and more behind, further into a deficit of not being able to catch up on normal life stuff, let alone do some things that i want to!

And I know with a new baby - don't expect to have ANY time for the first year! Aaaaaaahhhhh!

Oh well, I'll just hope for a miracle: more energy, and more time in the day! Ha! Won't be able to cash in on that miracle, as I'm already in store for one soon: A new life, a precious baby and child is the biggest miracle to exist. One of my mum's group friends pointed that out to me when I was feeling verrry ordinary and over the whole pregnancy thing back in the first tri-mester (when I was severely EXHAUSTED and non-functioning for a few months... plus nauseated!)

A child is a miracle. I need to bite my tongue and count my blessings instead! (But gee, mums do get the raw end of the deal!)