When no-one's there to hold your hand...

Despite being a 34 year old, relatively confident, competent and capable woman I realise that so often I really desire someone to 'hold my hand' to give me the confidence and encouragement to do the things I want to do. I don't need it... I am able to do things alone, and I will if I have to... but I really, really would like someone to be holding my hand a lot of the time! And I thinkk more lately I have been waiting for it, and not taking my own actions so much...

Is that weird? Is that something that I could blame my parents for? Were they over-protective and didn't encourage or let me stand on my own enough, without somebody constantly holding my hand... (well yes, probably they were! - out of absolute love and caring and good intentions - but definately over-protective!)

Could I make the same mistake(s) with my own children?? When and how do you let go of their hand? Obviously not something I have to seriously face now - with a little daughter just turned 2! I am sure I will be holding her hand for many more years to come! But there probably is quite a fine line between being overprotective and fostering a healthily independent child... and eventually an adult!

For me, I guess I have to realise the things that I am wanting extra reassurance with, and why (my own business ideas and ventures...) and give myself the encouragement and support that I need to just push through and do it. I have done it before... but having had a 'failed' business experience once before - I seem to have become overly afraid, cautious, and unwilling to go out on a limb on my own again... I am being afraid of 'failure'... of putting in a lot of effort and not getting enough in return... But I have to don't I? What better way to show my children how to be independent as adults than to prove my own success in that area!... and if at first you don't succeed, try, try again...

I can do it! I just need to believe in myself and not let fears stop me... And most of the time I will have my lovely daughter's hand to hold at least!