Need to find some new 'speed' or 'mode' settings...

Generally I only know two speeds: 'flat-out' doing everything at once (and generally way too much); or 'collapse' - when it all gets too hard, I get exhausted and I fall in a heap.

Neither is very healthy, I know.

Today I am in 'collapse' mode.

I just read my last post - and it is completely right! - I have to change, I need to change and I actually am starting to change my perspective on everything.. for the better. But just 'thinking' in a different way, although it is the necessary first step, doesn't follow-on naturally that I am then able to behave easily in a way to suit my new thinking.

Yep. My perspective on my life, my work (and that elusive 'balance' of both) is changing... but now it's obvious that I need to somehow create 'new habits' for myself as the old ones don't fit!!

Right now - (having stepped away from 'doing too much' and putting pressure on myself about all the business things that I could, should, would normally try to do) - I am at a bit of a loss - because I have been used to operating at just two crazy speeds.

Naturally I tend to think: "Oh my gawd. I just can't do it. My business is going to all collapse, because I just don't feel like doing anything (I need a break)." I have been feeling teary...

But it's not the end. It's just a change.. and I need to get used to doing things differently...

I guess I need to add speeds such as:
- slowly getting there
- currently resting
- looking after me
- family time
- not today
etc.

It's okay Lindy... it's just a change. And big 'pat on the back' for me for making healthier changes!!! xo