oh, so where do I start??
This past year has been quite a roller-coaster for me... I was a woman with an idea and a mission and a lot of determination...
And, yes, VERY little time too as I have a 3 year-old and a 1 year-old... and not to mention no start-up capital for my new business venture! It has felt like climbing Mount Everest for me... many months I have pushed myself quite to the limit - and I have watched dejectedly as I have seen the casualties off to the wayside of my single-minded determined focus... (i.e. the housework and communications with family and friends and sending gifts, acknowledging events etc. have been greatly neglected...) I have kept justifying it to myself... realising that I can't do EVERYTHING - and thinking that a better balance will be just around the corner..
So many times I have felt like giving up... So many tears, so many doubts - a lot of confusion.
Many real 'problems' and 'set-backs' have been encountered and overcome during the past few months... and very frequently I have had to re-evaluate my direction... all SO confusing!
One of the biggest 'problem' areas has been my studio... The small house at the front of our property has had 'opportunity' and 'potential' written all over it... In my mind to be able to use it as MY art studio has been such a dream come true: like being given the keys to a Lamborghini that is parked in your driveway (if you are a car-buff, unlike me).
But imagine if you really couldn't afford to keep that Lamborghini... or you had no spare-time to even drive it, or spare money to put fuel in it... And every time you tried to use it with your gorgeous little kids - they just ended up making a HUGE mess of the inside!... Hmmm..Yes.. A dream perhaps, but not a very functional reality...
So I've come to realise a lot.. I've learnt a LOT of difficult lessons...
I can see that although my ideas are great... the work and effort I've been putting in is highly commendable... The hard reality is that it is just not the right timing for me to be able to DO most of the things that I am dreaming about and desiring... (and could do if I didn't have such young kids!)
I have to be a bit more patient. Slow down. Move at a snail's pace, and take time to enjoy my beautiful young children - and look after myself more, and also indulge in MY OWN ART - without it having to have a business/financial pay off...
Sadly I have to let go of my studio. We are going to lease it out... (which was the original plan when we built our new house, and before I got my 'A Little Creative - business-goggles' on.
I can still do all I was aiming at. I can do small classes from my own home, and larger ones at nearby centres... I can focus on doing school-incursions in the future... and doing a lot of stuff (selling art and materials etc.) just online - on my new fabulous website! ( http://www.alittlecreative.net.au/ ) I am always one whose mind is overflowing with ideas...
But gee, it's been hard for me to let go of the studio... As I start to move all my stuff out - I can at least dream about hopefully setting it back-up again as my studio in a few years' time... I believe in all that I've been doing and know 'A Little Creative' has a bright future ahead.. all my hard work has been setting-up some very good foundations and sorting out the wheat from the chaff in my mind...
As I've commenced moving out of the studio - the latest 'drama' has hit my family with my husband's current work situation... More decisions and changes for us to overcome... but we will get through all the hard stuff I am sure :)
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