That's okay.
Essentially I am learning to be much kinder to myself, and slow down, be patient etc.
Hard to do, as always so many ideas flowing around in my head!
I am being active with doing more artwork for me.. Enjoying the collages, learning to crochet better, doing sketches, illustrator designs, and anything arty as often as I can.
( I will share some images soon - but need a bit more time to scan stuff and get pics off my phone...)
I still feel as though I am lacking direction a bit... (in regards to my own art!) - the number one goal that I seem to have in mind is to do some of my picture-book illustrations/designs... yet it is quite difficult for me to find the time for that...
I am still rolling along quite steadily with A Little Creative. - and I am enjoying all that is going on.
Last week I went to my GP as a follow up to some blood-tests, as I have been feeling SO tired and drained lately... I suspected that perhaps my iron levels were down again, but turns out that they are fine and instead the Dr was suggesting it could be depression.
I completely denied it initially - but when I went home and thought about it - I could recognise all the signs quite well - so I immediately felt depressed!!
Anyway, I am seeing our counsellor again very soon, and am aware that I just need to focus on looking after myself more... not going to sleep early probably is the bad habit I need to address!
A bit of depression is quite reasonable considering the stress and pressures that I have had this year - and I am happy that I have recognised the signs early - and will not let it get any worse!
I set myself some creative goals for August:
and I am pleased with my progress so far...
* Better quality paints have been ordered, and arrived (Jo Sonya's) - plus some new brushes for myself, and some rounds canvases to experiment with!
* I have been VERY busy trying to get better organised... and I am still getting there. On Monday I moved my desk from the main studio space into the 'shop' room, and moved a large shelf of shop-stock out. Essentially I am aiming to give myself the WHOLE shop room to be my own private studio space!! - which is very exciting - but will take me a bit of time to get things sorted properly. As classes are ongoing in the studio I am clearing and making that space as functional as possible - and then will endeavour to 'dig' myself out of the mess left over in my own room... Just need more time as usual!
* Picture story books... hmm yeah... I have fund the story drafts, and done a bit more planning of layout... but yet to start any of the REAL illustrative/design work - that will be my goal this weekend!
* Write to my pen-pal... yep, that will happen soon too!
Just feel happy that I am getting 'there'... Not that 'there' is anywhere really!: other than just being in the here and now, and feeling happy. A heck of a lot of mess and clutter I have been needing to sort through (and a few 'problems' here and there), but I feel as though all is definitely headed in the right directions xoxoxo
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